So, I've already failed to showcase my hideous new "artwork" before, but I thought it would be nice to check in once in a million years, and give a quick update.

As already stated I tried to upload a few traditional abominations I've made while mum was back home (I have to give back her TV to her that I use as the monitor ). I have recently purchased watercolour pencils so I was trolling around with that, but don't worry nothing worth mentioning came out of that (aside from the fact that they were disgustingly expensive for a set of pencils).

So, basically I failed to upload them because I only snapped a pic of a few that were kinda-sorta-maybe not a 100% cringe fuel to share, but my phone took pictures in some enormous sizes and the file uploader on here basically freaked out and told me I don't have the space for that big of a file dump. 

For the most part, however, I've been F I N A L L Y  taking practicing  anatomy ((((HANDS)))) seriously, so all I really have right now are a bunch of sketches both digitally and traditionally 

(an abandoned Sev project. I'd guess his hand cramped the hell ip. No wonder he looks so bemused)

Now I make sure to work in a few extra hours during work too. So, this very latest lame sketch is really just a testament of how these few last weeks have passed: it's a Sev at first glance, but really it's just a lousy excuse to get in yet another hand drawing and some head anatomy practice. Yes, they both suck, but hey: this is still ten times better than what I could do so far! All I do lately is disembodied hands. Unfortunately this Sev isn't much luckier than the one above him - he somehow grew a lump under his thumb... 

On his right those are just little notes to myself about what I was trying to go for - I would like to really stop working with all the "happy little accidents", and have a plan what I want to put on paper/screen. So far I've drawn with only a vague idea and if I accidentally got something right I would incorporate it into the final piece, but I realise I need to be able to draw in a more focused mannber with clear goals.

(... a few hours later ...)

I have no idea what's going on with that fabric either lmao 

Will pop in again soon, probably with these same low quality updates ~

I actually finished a project. What a way to begin the year! Click for original size.

There is that sense of grief when it feels like you are permanently trapped in an alternative universe from which you can't get out, but you also understand that you no longer have a place amongst the intact. It brings you a morbid sense of serenity.

I actually did something.

I clearly don't have enough unfinished projects, so I came up with an inktober redraw (digital, this time).

On a more serious note, I seriously plan to do a month-long project just like inktober, but with digital drawings, because I see major improvements with the anxiety of perfection department all thanks to inktober. I'd really like to bring that to my digital works and possibly, even to my writings - how long has it been since I've written anything in any language?!

Lately, somehow, I feel my old creative strike coming back to me, and I never felt this inspired before, so I guess it's time for my personal, humble Renaissance ~

So, I actually forced myself to finish something (shocker), although you can clearly tell I was working from top to bottom, and lost patience halfway (that belt only having a basic shape drawn is a dead give away), but hey, it's done. Too sharp edges, nothings detailed, but I got something onto the screen, and it's done. Hopefully the more I draw the faster I can work, so I will still have the mood to add in details (or just draw something normally). But for now, this trash is coming at you.

On a side note, when I started to work on this piece abomination, I was heavily tring to get a Dapper Corgi hatch, which finally happened thanks to the amazing people on wiz central, to be more specific, Eric Lionheart, who spared no time or effort giving some 3 or 4 (!!!) hatches out so I could finally cuddle with my virtual corgi. 

Talking of wiz, these latest attacks are disheartening. The entire community just feels... threatened. It's all weird, because unlike in Mabinogi, Wiz actually has a very welcoming and kind community that loves to give and connect with others. Why would we be targets of such things? This person allegedly attacked that resurrection attempt of Club Penguin, named Club Penguin Generations or Rewritten...? I am completely ignorant to anything CP, so sorry if I got things all mixed up! But what's the point of attacking people you know wouldn't hurt a fly? If you are already hacking, why not trying to tackle issues where help is needed: catching online predators, child molesters, scammers? This is all just pointless.