I actually finished a project. What a way to begin the year! Click for original size.

There is that sense of grief when it feels like you are permanently trapped in an alternative universe from which you can't get out, but you also understand that you no longer have a place amongst the intact. It brings you a morbid sense of serenity.

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I actually did something.

 

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I clearly don't have enough unfinished projects, so I came up with an inktober redraw (digital, this time).

On a more serious note, I seriously plan to do a month-long project just like inktober, but with digital drawings, because I see major improvements with the anxiety of perfection department all thanks to inktober. I'd really like to bring that to my digital works and possibly, even to my writings - how long has it been since I've written anything in any language?!

Lately, somehow, I feel my old creative strike coming back to me, and I never felt this inspired before, so I guess it's time for my personal, humble Renaissance ~

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I am still doing inktober (I am a little behind because of work, but getting back on schedule soon).

And my newest crap is just as cringe worthy as their precedessors! ​

My phone still can't pick up fine details and washes colours into each other, so they look even more ghastly than in real life (I didn't think that was possible tbh!)

Also, my lamp is kind of obnoxiously distorts the pics even further. So, there is that, but even if these would be my usual scans, they would still look B-A-D, because, well, they are 

13.)

The moment I got back home from work I realised it's Friday the 13th, so I wanted to make something related to that, but instead THIS thing happened:

I am still recovering from the shock how bad it turned out. I mean, even compared to my low expectations towards myself. Seriously, look at it. LOOK. AT. IT. Oh, gosh.

14.)

Well then, let's have a Nightmare before Christmas inspired thing instead, that one can't go wrong, right? Wrong.

 

15.) His "bliss"

I mean, at least no one would argue this ogre of a boy isn't something out of a nightmare, right? The concept is... well, I am actually ridiculing someone with it. Someone very delusional at that.

Also, HANDS. 

16.)

Girl, spiders, third eye, I don't even know, I was bored out of my sane mind as always.

 

17.) Smile :)

I intended the girl behind him to be a gnome sort of thing, that's why she's so small, but then I changed my mind (for the worse, naturally). Also, since the paper warps a little, now he has boobies 

As for those crease lines above his eyebrows... No, I don't have a single excuse for them.

 

18. Candlelight vigil

This is a picture of a picture of a boy, who is completely fictional, just like every subject of my inktober abominations. This is his candlelight vigil, the only one that fits him. I reckon he'd find it most appropriate, actually.  

I am actually listening to "Life in Mono" right now, which sort of gave this last entry some seriously depressing edge I am not ready to handle. Not my burden, come on!

 

Soon to be back with even worse and pathetic "art"work!
(Doesn't that sound like a threat now? ) 

Hey, if we are already at Life in Mono...

Mono - Life in Mono

 

The stranger sang a theme,
From someone else's dream
The leaves began to fall
And no one spoke at all
But I can't seem to recall
When you came along

Ingenieux,
Ingenieux,
I just don't know what to do

The tree-lined avenue
Begins to fade from view
Drowning past regrets
In tea and cigarettes
But I can't seem to forget
When you came along

Ingenieux,
Ingenieux,
I just don't know what to do

Ingenieux, I just don't know what to do
Ingenieux, I just don't know what to do
Ingenieux, I just don't know what to do
Ingenieux, I just don't know what to do
Ingenieux, I just don't know what to do

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So, I actually forced myself to finish something (shocker), although you can clearly tell I was working from top to bottom, and lost patience halfway (that belt only having a basic shape drawn is a dead give away), but hey, it's done. Too sharp edges, nothings detailed, but I got something onto the screen, and it's done. Hopefully the more I draw the faster I can work, so I will still have the mood to add in details (or just draw something normally). But for now, this trash is coming at you.

On a side note, when I started to work on this piece abomination, I was heavily tring to get a Dapper Corgi hatch, which finally happened thanks to the amazing people on wiz central, to be more specific, Eric Lionheart, who spared no time or effort giving some 3 or 4 (!!!) hatches out so I could finally cuddle with my virtual corgi. 

Talking of wiz, these latest attacks are disheartening. The entire community just feels... threatened. It's all weird, because unlike in Mabinogi, Wiz actually has a very welcoming and kind community that loves to give and connect with others. Why would we be targets of such things? This person allegedly attacked that resurrection attempt of Club Penguin, named Club Penguin Generations or Rewritten...? I am completely ignorant to anything CP, so sorry if I got things all mixed up! But what's the point of attacking people you know wouldn't hurt a fly? If you are already hacking, why not trying to tackle issues where help is needed: catching online predators, child molesters, scammers? This is all just pointless.

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