So, I've just given a pretty good advice a few days ago, can be read as above: 'Be your own best friend'. The rest is just my lack of humor, really. Anyways, what makes it so interesting, that today I had to realise that it was an advice from desitny or whatever you call it, so something you must to know, because some disappointing event is about to approach your shitty life to make it even more messy.

Juli, my friend is, well, not the best friend you can imagine if it comes to understand other people's feelings. She knows that I am in the very beggining of a big change - again -, and I asked her for her help, and there you go, she just texted me 'Oh, tomorrow [the day I need her help] I'll go to Vi's, and I am so happy I haven't seen her in a while blaaah blaaah blaah'.

Actually, Juli makes pretty awful comments on Vi's behavior, like why she skips college all the time, and whatnot while Vi is absent. And noooow, this shit happens. I am definitely not the one to jugde her but come on, this is just disgusting.

God bless the weak.

I mean myself of course.

Seriously tho, it was kinda sad, and I only blame myself, like I should have known that she will totally forget about me and my shit going on, so why am I so helpless? Well, good thing I already had this advice in mind, SO I do have plans on my own, and I want to fulfill them one by one all by myself.

My self-confidence sucks, and I really should have balls already (no, not THAT way) to make my moves on my own, but it seems here's my time to do so... I guess?

It seems we will go out on friday to some pub, but  honestly I don't really like pubs. They are dark, everyone's having cigarettes, the massive amount of smoke makes me kinda sick (and I am smoking, man!) and I just feel like an old hag. And I hate to feel like that. I prefer sitting in a crowd on the grass with sunshine above my stupid head and young people like me everywhere I can see. That's the way I am, I guess. The lifestyle which fits adulthood somehow seems to be unpleasant to me, something I just don't want to have. So, I hate pubs too. I fail, so damn well.

On saturday or sunday we will go to a teathre again, or so it seems, actually we were supposed to go last week, but Juli wasn't feeling well, so we skipped it. We shall see ~

Until next time. :]

PS. JEEEZ, I almost forgot! Mwhaha! The song of the post ~~~
Summer's son, you sweet refreshing thing you ~ <3

WOW I totally could find this on trilulilu, I mean I know this song for yeeears, but this is NOT licensed (yet), YAY!

Texas - Summer's son

I always get Near from Death Note in mind when I hear this one, lol even though he's kinda 'Winter's son' but he's refreshingness, he's sweetness fits SUMMER a lot more  or wait, SUNSHINE is the best to describe him. Oh Near, who would I be without you ;-;
Ok, maybe I'm just overdoing it here. Oh, well! Near is badass, thats what you totally should admit!

The amazing pic is drawn by the amazing miyanushi, click to check out her awesome gallery!

Im tired of telling the story
Tired of telling it your way
Yeh I know what I saw
I know that I found the floor

Before you take my heart, reconsider
Before you take my heart, reconsider
Ive opened the door
Ive opened the door

Here comes the summers son
He burns my skin
I ache again
Im over you

I thought I had a dream to hold
Maybe that has gone
Your hands reach out and touch me still
But this feels so wrong

Before you take my heart, reconsider
Before you take my heart, reconsider
Ive opened the door
Ive opened the door

Here comes the summers son
He burns my skin
I ache again
Im over you

Before you take my heart, reconsider
Before you take my heart, reconsider
Ive opened the door
Ive opened the door

Here comes the summers son
He burns my skin
I ache again
Im over you

Here comes the winters rain
To cleanse my skin
I wake again
Im over you

Here comes the summers son
He burns my skin
I ache again
Im over you

Here comes the winters rain
To cleanse my skin
I wake again
Im over you

Im over you

Lyrics from here, thanks!